I went back to the doctor yesterday. I have been released to work. I go back on Monday. I am not excited. In fact, whatever the opposite of excited is...multiply that by 127 and that is how I feel. I swear I have had 4 mini heart attacks this week. Okay, so not really, but you know when you get that intense pain in your chest that lasts about 3 seconds every once in a while? Well, I usually get it about once or twice a year. I have had it 4 times this week. I know it's stress...the stress of going back to that God Forsaken place I call work. I just knew I would have another job by now, and wouldn't be going back, but things have just not worked out like that for me. For once in my life I know what it feels like to NEED a job.
Seriously. This is the first time in my life I have interviewed for a job that I was not offered. I have applied to plenty that I haven't heard back from, but never have I interviewed and not been offer. Oh, I am a real people person. And I have that "way" about me where I can convince you that I can do anything. And most of the time I can. Not because I'm awesome or anything (well I am though), but because I would never convince you I could do something if I didn't think I could.
But luck would have it....it didn't work for me. Truth of the matter is, I only interviewed for 1 job I didn't get offered. He told me he couldn't afford me. I told him, it was in his best interest to find a way to afford me. (Ballsy, huh?) Well that backfired! I was confident that if he didn't hire me, someone else would. Unfortunately, NO ONE ELSE IS HIRING!
Well, I only get 1 hour on the library computer. And I am down to 21 minutes...and have a few more job sites to search. But for now I wanted to update my buddies. Sorry I didn't have time to check in with each of you. I would need WAY more than an hour for that!
Happy New Year!
*PS. Holy Crap! A first..."No Misspellings Found" That never happens; I am a terrible speller!
*PSS. I misspelled "misspellings" in my ps and ruined the whole thing!Labels: heart attack, job, job search, stress, update |
(hugs)
Have you thought of applying to jobs outside of Georgia? ;)
I hope things get better asap. :(